12/30/2006: "Happy Birthday (to me!)"

Well, I have now officially made it 21 years, and in pretty much one piece! This is something of an achievement, I'd like to think. Alas, I don't feel any taller, smarter, or otherwise 'more awesome', which means one of two things: These factors are not related to age, or, I've already hit the peak and I can't possibly get any better/more amazing. I'll leave it up to the individual as to which is the case.

I'd like to say that I've learned alot in the last year, and I probably have. Alas, after a year of small lessons, corrections, and changes, I can't really tell you what, exactly, I have learned. I can say, though, that you don't quite outgrow stupid decisions, as even just last night I was out doing things that I knew at the time were stupid and, in retrospect, were still bad choices. But, hey, life goes on. I find trying to not repeat stupid decisions/choices is a much better/more easily obtained goal.

Looking back, I'd say it was a decent year. Graduated with an AA, got a good running start on the rest of my degree, and things are all on-track, or at least as much as I can control. At least that's how it is scholastically. On a personal level.. not so sure. Yet again, I've let several opportunities slip away due to inaction and, especially recently, I've seen myself changing more and more, which makes me uncomfortable. I guess that doesn't make a whole lot of sense, though, to be worried about things occuring in your own behavior; if you don't like the changes, why do you let them happen? But it's all natural progression through life, I'd think. I just happen to not be terribly keen on change in general.

So, in short, not too bad. I'll keep the nostalgiac rambling short, though, as we still have New Year's for that. I'd hate to have nothing to ramble about when that comes.

My only real concern right now is doing whatever I can to not get sick. I can feel it coming, I can tell it's there, but I'm desperately trying to pretend I'm not sick.


Jason

On Sunday, December 31st, Kat said:

Happy birthday dear Jason. i'm sorry about the personal changes. If you want someone to talk to, please know i will listen.